For the last 3 years now I have been stubbornly stupid (or maybe it's stupidly stubborn) about an issue in my life. Someone who stepped into my life for a time, left her unforgettable mark, and went away (okay, I went away, to be exact. I came here). Those were among the most memorable months in my early working life, and she was one of the most mesmerizing women I'd met. Still am.
For someone who claims he believes things happen for a reason, I certainly wasn't seeing too clearly.
And so I struggled. Held on. Hoped. Waited. Yearned.
Despite the signs.
And then, recently, like a slap on the cheek, things become clear. Perhaps it was divine intervention, a flashing neon signboard from God:
"Enough already, some things are meant to be. Some aren't."
I received the news today. Good news for some. Equivocal for me. My reaction was more of a "Okay, that's that then. I'm finally seeing what You've been trying to show me."
Perhaps a bit saddened, but just a touch. But happy too that something is going well for a friend.
Things have been pretty dynamic in my life the last couple of months. Some things ending. Some new things. New people I've met. People I enjoy, but perhaps felt inhibited by other unresolved issues. Perhaps now, I can move on, and see what happens.