Monday, March 27, 2006

More Random Thoughts

Had these thoughts in the tub just now. And then, was talking online to HC which made me think somemore.
A wise man once told me.
Sometimes, no matter what you do, or how hard you try, some things just aren't meant to be.

Wise words. Be it career, academics or love. One wonders, if that is the case, why bother? Are we really in control of our lives? Our destiny? Is there such a thing? Are our paths already predetermined, and our roles merely to act it to reality? Pawns in a celestial chessgame, moved by unseen Hands?
What comes to mind, Meg Ryan's character as that heartbroken cardiothoracic surgeon who lost her patient soon after completing surgery.
"Who are we fighting against? Why are we here?"
I know I've had that thought before. Who decides which patient comes out of his vfib, and which patients don't? Who decides which babies live, and how?
Who decides becomes of my life? And when I die?
Can we truly change our lives? Ourselves?
Not sure what I'm thinking about, or where this is going. So consider this thoughts of a muddled mind.

9 Comments:

Blogger WMD: Wife, Mother, Daughter said...

Ha! Looks like you are also one of those who gets philosophical in the showers/tub. Have shared the same thoughts too. Wonder at times what are we trying to achieve in our lives if some things are never meant to be. Only consolation I get, is at least, I know I have given my best and don't have to look back with regrets.

10:41 PM  
Anonymous Anonymous said...

Well I believe Jesus is in control. And our human brain cannot understand all that God does. Who is to say what is truly wise, good, right, or wrong? Surely not us humans for who among us can truly say we are able to judge righteously?
Think about it - all creation points to a God! I still don't understand everything but I have found peace and joy in Jesus.

1:12 AM  
Blogger The Beautifulmind said...

Hi there,

Just want to let you know someone from Kuala Lumpur read your blog.

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4:40 AM  
Anonymous anastasia said...

The minute you go off-call your mind starts overworking.

I don't know if you believe in God or anything but if you do then you'll know that He decides all these things.
We're not fighting against anyone. Maybe medicine is about giving a second chance to live. But we don't decide who gets the second chance and who doesn't. We just do the best we can and let Someone else decide who lives and who dies.
But, sure we can change our lives. It's called free will. Though I have to admit that I too sometimes wonder how much control we have over our lives with free will...

I dunno, these are just my thoughts.

7:20 AM  
Blogger Twisted Heels said...

Someone from UK is reading you too :)

Like everyone says; in life you do the best you could and the rest would take its own course.

Unless you're thinking about euthanasia. Anastasia says medicine would give you a second chance to live. I have always thought about this. If the life would be worse after all the surgery/treatment/drug, is it really worth it? To have an extra 5 years but suffer in pain?

5:14 PM  
Blogger grace said...

the proverbs says:
many are the plans in a man's heart but it is god's purpose that prevails.

7:18 PM  
Blogger Flatfeet said...

Don't think too much SD, later got more white hair ;pp Bu then will be more difficult to find ironin soulmate.

2:43 AM  
Anonymous nrzzmrd@gmail.com said...

Hi, really enjoy reading your blog.

Regarding your random thoughts, I just would like to share my belief with you, maybe it could help answer some of your questions.

Life is not but a test. As God says in the last revelation to mankind,
"Blessed is He in Whose Hand is the dominion, and He is Able to do all things,
Who has created death and life, that He may test you which of you is best in deed, and He is the All-Mighty, the Oft-Forgiving."
[al-Mulk 67:1-2]

On free will and predestination, for us muslims, we believe that man's will is true and real, and certainly man will be questioned for his actions in this world.
“So whoever does good equal to the weight of an atom (or a small ant), shall see it. And whoever does evil equal to the weight of an atom (or a small ant), shall see it(see it later during Judgement Day).” [al-Zalzalah 99:7-8]

But man's will cannot escape God's will. For God knows everything about His creation,
“Do you not know, that Allah knows all that is in the heaven and in the earth? Verily! It is all in the Book. Verily! That is easy for Allah(God).” [Soorah al-Hajj (22): 70 ]

It is only natural for man to question the purpose of its existence. I hope you continue to seek answers to these questions.
nrzzmrd@gmail.com

6:44 AM  
Anonymous A Doc "with Calling" said...

GOD decides who lives and who dies. Doctors like you and me are made by Him to serve HIS purpose. And we are only "instrumental" in determine individual's predetemined destiny. Sometimes, we lost a patient no matter how hard we tried. Sometimes, we healed a patient, even though we did very little, almost miraculous... whatever the outcome, we just need to discern what He wants us to do.. and you hear what he wants you when you have a personal relationship with HIM.

11:00 PM  

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