Sunday, December 31, 2006

The Year That Was

As 2006 draws to an end, I think about what this fateful year brought. I know it's a tacky phrase, but it reminds me yet again, time flies. It really does.

What has this year meant for me? What was special about 2006?

  • I completed my specialty training in internal medicine, and moved on to my fellowship. Something that was a bit of a leap, since when I started my medical journey 10 years ago, I thought I'd get my Dr title, come out and work as a GP and start a family. Who would have thought I'd still be in postgrad medical education, up to 7 years after I became a doc?

  • I turned 30. Yea yea yea, aside from the jokes and teases about bald spots, erectile dysfunction and dementia, it really unnerved me, realizing I was no longer in 'my 20s'. Not that being 30 felt physically different but it was a huge psychological milestone. Also, it unnnerved me to think I am now older than those beauty queens and models I drool over.

  • I met a wonderful woman who brings so much laughter, joy and love into my life. She makes me so happy, it makes my head spin. And you know what? It excites me to imagine what the future has in store for us.

  • This was the year that, after having thought otherwise for the last decade, I realize that my future probably lies here on this continent, than the land I call home. Why? Personal reasons. Career reasons. But most of all, looking at how things are going back home, I have sadly come to the realization that Malaysia will never truly be fair to all. That because of retarded politicians and idiots like Khairy, Malaysia will always have a 3rd world mentality. That controlled racism will always thrive. That some will always preach and practice discrimination, corruption, and racial hate. And while they claim to be fighting for their rights, to the extent of waving a weapon and making physical threats to others, they promote double standards, laziness and corruption, and ultimately, downfall of a society. And while that might work for some, that I cannot raise my family in a country in which some of her sons think that others are lesser people than them simply by virtue of race and religion. Simply because their ancestors arrived on a land before mine. And believe me, having missed and yearned for home for so long, this is a hard decision to come by. But for me, it's a necessary decision.
What about the future? Of my resolutions and goals for the new year? Well.

  • Complete my current research project and get a paper outta it.

  • Be more patient. With others as well as myself.

  • Work out in my gym more. I had a pretty good workout schedule. Until I starting dating, and everything exercise related went to hell (now isn't that typical?)

  • Learn to fly the space shuttle.

  • Maybe, finally, will get a tattoo.

Happy New Year, everyone.


Anonymous dhssraj said...

quite a stance there youve made this new year.

every year malaysia loses thousands of its brightest citizens while the leaders at home quarrel over who has more %age over a shrinking pie. im truly afraid for the future when i think about it.

good luck with your choice man.

8:17 PM  
Anonymous Anonymous said...

Congrats to the USA for getting another brilliant man; Condolence to Malaysia for losing one.

All the best, Vagus! :)

2:51 AM  
Blogger huajern said...

All the best. Sad to lose another talent.

Since I am here, could I ask a medical question? He he, free consultation.
Have you noticed the lower levels of blood sugar in diabetic patients with advanced renal failure? What is the pathophysiology? Is it reduced insulin breakdown by the less active kidneys? Or something else altogether? Thanks.

6:30 AM  
Blogger vagus said...

thanks guys. it's a difficult decision, but a necessary one.
huajern- that's just a small contributor to low blood sugars (hypoglycemia) in diabetics. the main player is, surprisingly, studies have shown that the kidneys themselves exhibit gluconeogenesis (making sugar from something else), so if they fail, one of the body's organ of glucose formation is gone. but yes, renal failure patients are at much higher risk for hypoglycemia.
happy new year, guys.

6:47 AM  
Anonymous Anonymous said...

It's interesting to read a fellow Endocrinology trainee's blog from across the pond. Did you graduate from the States? What research are you doing currently? I'm a 4th (out of 5) SpR (Specialist Registrar) in Endocrinology & Diabetes in UK. Fellow Malaysian. Fellow brother stuck in the hinterlands. Still in a quandary whether to return home or stay here as a Consultant (Attending Physician)

7:36 AM  
Blogger huajern said...

Happy New Year.

8:53 AM  
Anonymous Nocturnale said...

Kudos to your audacity, really. You have my admiration.

11:41 AM  
Anonymous Anonymous said...

Best of luck for the job search after your Fellowship next year ie.if you have visa issues.It can be difficult at times not to have immediate family around.Been there many years ago after completing Fellowship and appreciate what you have to go through now.Good luck!

1:08 PM  
Anonymous Anonymous said...

hi, Dr Khoo
have been reading your blog for some time and quite enjoyed the stories and experiences you shared..
It's a tough decision...But, always remember to make Malaysians proud of your achievements there.."
Happy New Year and all the best.


3:54 AM  
Anonymous Anonymous said...

Happy New Year as well! I've enjoyed reading your posts over the holidays.

5:37 AM  
Anonymous DELIcious said...

terrible. you forgot waiting in the mall with a flower ... *cough* ... and bad service for dinner.

and depriving me of dessert.

just kidding! it's not significant. ehehhe, just wanted to tease you. =)

happy new year!! all the best ahead!

8:42 AM  
Blogger Lapin said...

A difficult decision - but all the better for being taken deliberately, with eyes open. Good luck, but don't burn any bridges. Malaysia may yet surprise you. I share your concerns yet I still hope that it will surprise me one day.

6:16 AM  
Anonymous susan said...

Malaysia is now a different place. Not like how it was during my father's time. I have left after thinking about it for 10 years. My only regret was I should have left earlier! Lets hope till the cows crow for Malaysia to surprise me. I have waited for 20 years...

1:26 AM  
Anonymous Jimbo said...

Get the tattoo first, it seems the easiest of the lot! I understand what you mean about our home land. Can i even call it my home land anymore? I have kids now, growing up in an increasingly intolerant society. When the time is right, I shall, like you, move on as well. I don't want to fight over their stinking shrinking pie as well.

11:01 PM  

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